Posted in Feeling feelings, Jackassery on July 30, 2009

Today is my two year blogiversary.1111Topsy_Turvey_Birthday_Cake_by_p

Two whole years I have been at this.  I have managed to alienate family, make friends, and spout off some serious bullshit all as a result of this here space.

Part of my wants to get all shmoopy, to thank all of you for reading and giving me a little, tiny whisper in a chorus of many, to voice my gratitude for all the wonderful people I have met because of blogging and to share some sort of wisdom.

I don’t really have much wisdom.

What I do have are thoughts.

Blogging is a weird thing.  Some people will relate to what you have to say, some will not.  I will spend an hour writing an entry that really means something to me and get nothing while a silly little thought, thrown out in five minutes, will produce an avalanche of response.

Reader feedback never fails to shock, surprise and delight me.  Folks got really worked up when I said I didn’t like animals, but when I pondered fucking Jesus, y’all seemed game.  There is something delightfully warped about that.  Boning our Lord and Savior? Cool.  Hating on kitties?  Sacrilege.

This space has brought me some frustrations; I have been called fat, dumb, pathetic, and delusional.  While I prefer “curvy”, “simple”, “absurd” and “misguided”, people can say whatever they choose.  It is infrequent but it happens.  I just have stopped listening to it so much.  I guess I am doing something right to bring out such vitriol.

What makes it easier are the private emails I receive, some from folks who never comment.  Maybe they relate to a story or need restaurant advice.  Perhaps they want to know how to impress their inlaws with a perfect meal or need makeup tips, but these emails brighten my day.  It comes as no surprise that the bulk of the messages I get are regarding struggles with body image and weight loss.  I still battle this myself and knowing I am not alone, that I have maybe helped someone, is truly humbling.  I received an email in the Spring from a woman who said I inspired her to lose 30 pounds; there are not words to express how deeply I was touched.

Fucking hell, this got shmoopy.  Well, nobody is perfect as I have proven time and time again.

Thanks for reading, commenting, lurking and being part of my life.  I hope you continue to come back and be part of this.

Now who wants to give me a pinch to grow an inch?